Sweet Sleep

Four letter word just to get me along

It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and

I keep stalling, keeping me together

People around gotta find something to say now

Holding back, everyday the same

Don't wanna be a loner

Listen to me, oh no

I never say anything at all

-That's Not My Name, The Ting Tings

It's just so stupid.

So, so retarded. And I am so tired.

I want to go to my room and pull the covers over my head and just sleep forever. And ever. And ever.

People expect things from me. They expect me to smile and nod my head, agree to whatever they said. And that's because I do. Normally. I nod and smile while inside I'm screaming "HECK TO THE NO!"

I just don't have the energy for that though. And it seems that everyone see's it. See's my lack of a will to fight. I just want to sleep. Why can't I just lay down and sleep?

I am emotionally, physically and spiritually exhausted. I need to rest my emotions and not feel anything. I need to sleep for days and revive my body. And I need to relax in the arms of Jesus and lose myself in His words.

All of those needs seem too far fetched though and I don't know when I'll have the time to do any of it.